Venting..

Well, I am going to use this as my venting session this time. I usually don't do this on here.. but here it goes..
I have had a bad week.
Aaron and I are struggling with the video game issue and parenting and everything really. I mean, I really wish parenting came with a book, a guide. Especially step parenting. It is so tough. I just am not sure what to do right now. I feel like anytime he gets punished he goes to his mom to get him out of it, you know. That is hard. Please pray for us. I am sure it is hard for Julian too. Especially with such a big difference in rules.
Then we have Carlee who I am trying to get her mouth and attitude under control.
And Gavin is now sleeping in his big boy bed. I am amazed. The first night was terrible, but now he is doing so good with it. I will post pics later. And he is in Julian's room now. Which at first Julian was upset that he had to share. But I told him that alot of kids have to share and that there is no other option. And that sometimes family members have to sacrifice things.. And then the next night he said he really liked sharing with Gavin. So we will see....
And I am really working on my relationship with God. I really need Him. And I am glad he is always there to hear me and be there for me. Sometimes it is hard for me to pray and read my Bible like I should. It is so hard to fathom that He always hears me and knows my problems. Isn't that hard to grasp? I mean, he knows us better than anyone. He knows how many hairs are on our heads. So of course He cares about us and what we are going through. Even when it doesn't seem like it.. And I can tell everyone else this, it is just hard to realize it myself sometimes. I am still working on my anger. I get angry easily sometimes.. I was raised by a yelling family. And it is hard for me to not yell sometimes.. but I am human. And I will continue to work on this. Please pray for me on this issue.
On a good note... Aaron and I have a sitter for Valentines Day. Not sure what we are doing, but it will be nice to get away.
We are also working on setting up our vacation.. We might be going to FL with no kids. This is scarey for me, but I know it will be good for Aaron and I. I have just never left my kids for a week. We will see if it works out..
Well, that is all for now.